General disillusionment with one’s future

For 2017, I want to do a bullet journal. At it’s very simplest, it is a blank journal that you write to-do lists in. It can get more complicated, but I love journals and planners and all that, so I am going to give it a shot.

Two things have already come out of this. First, spring graduation thesis deadline is April 3rd, so I’d need the thing written and sent to my committee by March 1st-ish. No one on my committee expect me to graduate in the spring, but I want to have my dissertation written (or at least mostly written) at that point. But I KNOW my project isn’t done, and I don’t know if it will be done by March 1st. So that is stressful.

Second, I need a job. But talking to people is SO DAMN HARD. I am burnt out in some ways. I don’t know what I want to do next, career-wise. I just want a job so I can move out and not starve and be able to save up money. But the only advise I get is ‘networking’ and that only stresses me the heck out.

On top of being stressed about the future, Mom being ill is also stressful, and my brother is graduating academy tomorrow and my friends decided at the very damn last minute to have a party Friday so there is a lot on my plate.


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